But I never do, damn the man!
Firstly I'd like to say, I feel stupid about a lot of things I post on this blog, I'm not much of a writer but I can string a few words and do my own spell check but I must come off like a wanker, I mean, I know no one reads this but some of this stuff I just have to delete just in case someone clicks the link from my myspace profile and stumbles upon this blog.
I created this blog with best intentions, hopefully to write something that at least I was happy for people to read and that eventually I would show some people and you know, they might check it once in a while, and I'm not quitting just yet, but I guess I still haven't really figured out any sort of consistency with the writing, some of it is opinionated, some of it is having a whinge, none of it is factual and barely any of it is possible for me to read myself without squirming.
I have a lot of things I'd like to say, but it takes me three or four rewrites of each sentence to get it out.
I guess I'll keep going on about what I buy, do, don't, see, hear, love, hate, want, don't want, and so on and so forth, because I wouldn't have it any other way.
I have no clue whether any one reads this but I wanted to get a little head start before I start telling people about it (other than my myspace link) and I wanted to develop a little consistency to my posting so this wouldn't be full of completely erratic posts.
Back on the topic of the title, I never finish what I start, but oh how I love it when I do. I have aspirations, I'm sure most people do too, but mine build up and clog up my brain. Wouldn't it be nice to do something you love and get paid to do it? I think it would.
In year eight I wanted to be in a signed band, tour and live a "rock 'n' roll" lifestyle, the closest I got to that was recording an EP in a punk band who broke up as soon as we were booked for our first gig, I hate that fucking idea now.
In year nine, I was heavily into the idea of being an artist (drawing, painting etc), so I created a DeviantArt account and got to work, I tried my hand at painting and got frustrated and quit, I am still drawing sketches and doodles and I'm taking VCE art classes at school but I'm pretty over that idea, too. In year ten, I was trying to pursue (or planning to pursue) both of those ideas at once, I was playing in a band with my good friend Kris called Haus of Cards and trying my hand at painting again, both of those things pretty much went to shit.
I guess I'm pretty on and off with arty things, sometimes all I will do is draw and draw or play guitar until my fingers are raw as fuck and sometimes just the idea of being creative will piss me off. And for this reason alone, I wouldn't want to rely on feeling inspired to feed myself and pay my rent, but I can say that having a consistent flow of being happy with my finished work keeps me inspired, so I inspire myself, don't I?
And right now, I'm on the idea of filmmaking, an equally interesting concept but the idea is still fresh and I'm sure it'll turn sour any time now, I guess I've been a little poisoned by my parents' hatred for failure, actually, it's not as bad as it sounds.
Things I'd like to do while still a teenager?
- Complete, finish and clock more great video games (such as the Final Fantasys, the Zeldas and SNES greats).
- Collect a fairly decent collection of vinyl records in case I'm still keen on starting a 2nd hand record store, yep.
- Write, direct and shoot at least one short film that I'm not embarrassed to show to my friends, one that I'm happy with, at least.
- Broaden my horizons with music, maybe fill another 20gb of my iPod with new music.
- Properly stop smoking, because if I'm still smoking when I'm twenty, then I'll never quit.
- Pass school with a decent enter score, as not to rule out tertiary education, we'll see.
But hey, that shouldn't be
too hard, I do have three and a half more years.